What's the difference between them and you?
Apparently an ability to turn off the mind and leave...nothing in charge.
"Nothing" is, harsh, perhaps unnecessarily so. But what do they have that you don't which allowed them to go where they went and do what they did, while you stayed where you were and did less than nothing, just observing.
Maybe it's something you have that they lack.
If that's the case, find it, and excise it. Maybe you'll be more interesting.