March 29th, 2004
I think I'm getting more belligerent. Becoming more of an asshole. Taking less care to worry about the feelings of others.
(I'll wait here while some of you recover from the shock of realizing I used to take any care about the feelings of thers.)
Am I getting more self-destructive? (This would seem to be a tall order.)
Strap in and watch. Should be a hell of a show.
|Date:||March 29th, 2004 04:32 am (UTC)|| |
I'll wait here while some of you recover from the shock of realizing I used to take any care about the feelings of others.
Anybody recovering from shock over that doesn't know you very well at all. For all your nihilism and occasional belligerence (which I still prefer to genuine, perpetual belligerence from genuine assholes), I've always considered you one of the more caring people I've ever known.
I have more faith in people than you do, but I think you care more about the ones you personally know than I do. And I care, mind you, but I definitely feel that you have been more in sync with the emotional state of your friends than I have been.
I honestly wish I was as good a friend as you are.
I've only known you for a short while, but in that time you've shown yourself to be an incredibly generous, thoughtful, caring guy. Belligerent? Sometimes, maybe. But I can be cold and reserved (just part of who I am), and on bad days it can be all I see, but I hope to god I never let that define me. I think we see our faults as glaring stains on our souls, but really they're just part of the fabric of us. You really don't come across as an asshole at all (and trust me, I don't give dudes much leniency)--in fact, whenever you talk about your friends the love is evident.
|Date:||March 29th, 2004 07:46 am (UTC)|| |
What's with all this nice touchy-feely stuff? Jen to the rescue. John, you're a big gimundo meanie. And a jerk. And you have a cool hat. Wait, that wasn't quite along the vein I was going for.... Oh yeah, you're just positively evil.
(That's all the mean stuff I could come up with. Was that okay?)
|Date:||March 30th, 2004 12:03 pm (UTC)|| |
I bet it is just spring gettin' to ya! I know I've been feeling the stress of it comin' on.